Feeling valued only when we go above and beyond.
This kind of company often makes us feel unvalued. To become valued we need to constantly strive. We pretend, put on masks, try very hard to meet expectations and usually never reach a point where everything is okay.
Some highly competitive companies with rapid growth rates only value the employees who exceed KPI. Sometimes it is stated directly.
During performance reviews I feel like if I haven’t saved the world or gone above and beyond, it’s not enough. It’s not enough to just do my job well and omplete tasks on time.
In other cases we have to work very hard to justify inflated expectations of our manager or the entire team.
I faced a very high level of trust and expectations that I thought I did not meet. That’s why I had to put in a lot of effort. Plus, my coworkers and I were very close, almost like a family. I was constantly afraid of letting people down, so I worked very hard.
Managers can have similar feelings. The pressure of expectations does not depend much on status.
When I lead a team I always feel like everyone sees my mistakes and judges me. Like, if I say something wrong, employees talk about it behind my back and write resignation letters. But very few of them understand the reality of my work as a founder (financial instability, being responsible for everything) and my life as a person (tremendous fatigue, constant tension, burnout, losing heart because no one else wants to take any responsibility).
Sometimes tension is caused by a very competitive environment.
I feel the most pressure from my dissertation advisor and lab colleagues because of high expectations, strict regulations and rivalry. All of us try to publish as many articles as possible as fast as possible. As a rule, my dissertation advisor only sees projects and their potentials and expects amazing results. The rivalry and the desire to show my professionalism add to stress. I mean, there’s no conflict or abuse. But I feel a lot of pressure, both external and internal.